It is 2 days before the end of 2011 and it's been a long time coming for me to clear this heaviness from my heart... For the last 42 years, I have always hoped that one day you would come into my life and become the daddy that I had always wished for. One who would put me on his lap, hug me and shower me with kisses all over my face until my smile made my own cheeks hurt. One who would protect me from the world and make me feel completely safe, because I'd know my daddy would always be there. For years I waited. But you never showed up. Finally, when I sought you out at age 25, although we were reunited there were still many questions that went unanswered. Wasn't I good enough for you? Why did you disappear when I was only months old and never return? Did you ever think about where I might be? Did you ever search for me? Where are the 8 siblings of mine you also fathered? Not only did you deny me of your presence, but you also have denied me the opportun...